I have made a decision. When I turn 18, I am going to Vancouver to find my father. Whether I have to go by myself or not. I have so many questions to ask him. Like why he deserted me, and why he would visit, and then I wouldn't hear anything from him for years, and then he would show up and do the same thing all over again. I love my dad, like any other girl would love her father, I just want to know why he was never one of the constants in my life. I really want to find him... I'm just afraid of what I will learn once I do...